Organizing Chaos - 6.8.03

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Ugh. I can whine about not having a job. Or I can think constructively and plan. So plan. We'll go from macro to micro.

Adrian now ------> Some stuff that happens. ------> human development of space (ultimate goal)

Adrian now ---> Job? Start business? Who would hire me for a substantial wage? Who would lend me money to start a business? ---> ultimate goal

Adrian now -> Recursive thinking. -> ultimate goal

Adrian now -> Goes to Barns & Noble having romantic image of working at bookstore, hears employee pick up the phone and say, "Barnes and Noble Stevens Creek. My name is Todd. How can I help you?" forty fucking times. Dissilusionment ensues, contemplates taking job there anyway to teach self elusive character. -> ultimate goal

Adrian now -> Writes and illustrates children's book about philosophy -> Modest success, but attains next book deal with substantial cash advance. -> Ultimate goal. I like this one.

Adrian now -> Sells tons of Pad Holsters after adding what seems a missing piece to his business formula -> Creates other products. -> Becomes small time, then big time industrialist. -> ultimate goal

I'm struggling with my desire for an immidiate source of income. A job might take up a lot of time that I could use to pursue these other business ventures and be much happier doing. But to create some of those ventures I also need a little cash (or a lot in some cases).

I left school because it felt like I wasn't learning anything. Not the fault of my teachers, but my own fault. So I left because it was depressing to waste my time and money.

My planning must be more rigorous then these musings, though these have been helpful.

--Adrian Perez